I watched a lot of cartoons and movies. I draw incessantly and carry a sketchbook everywhere. I work in animation and self-publish my books. There are monsters in the streets, don't wear red. Mad bulls and monsters hate that color. I still watch cartoons.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Oh frabjous day, callou callay! Sketches from the weekend.

I did more drawings. But still not as much as most of the Sketchcrawl horde. I'm enjoying the sketchbook scans of those who did the crawl this past Saturday posted on the Sketchcrawl forum. Congratulations all! Here's mine:

I thought of doing some photoshop colors on the pencil ones but decided that a watercolor wash on them at a later date would do them better. Keeping this purely non-digital. The one with the stumpy palm trees is proving great for research on a story I'm working on. The guy on the bicycle was not in the composition when I started, he wandered into it as I was doing the color wash and made for a better composition. The same happened to the tall tree against the sky one. A couple sat under its shade and made the image even more interesting. Love those great breaks.

The two ladies laying on the grass were instant subjects for all the crawlers. Actually, Sketchcrawlers make excellent subjects as well. They hold still for quite a bit of time and only shift to a new one when they finish their drawing. Long enough for you to finish yours.

This final one was done at the end of the day at the Japanese Tea Garden. We wandered in and I immediately had to go over that arched wooden bridge--the one that requires very long legs to span the steps--for good luck. I found this scene and relaxed into my final drawing of the day. Ahhhh.

Allabove drawings done outdoors, actual media: pencil, watercolor, Northern Californian sun and air. Does it every time.

I found some bloggers who did the crawl (one was with us in SF, and one from Canada). If you've got a blogpost of your sketches from the Skechtcrawl, just leave me a comment (please to leave a URL to link to) or write me an email so I can add a link on this post to your blog. Here's two to start:

The Firehouse Stomp
Go Gecko Girl

And the list continues...

Monkey Feather
The Iron Scythe
G. de Dios Sketch Journal
Laurent Beauvallet
Lydia Velarde
Pittsburgh Sketch
Elisa Chavarri
The Art of Erik blog

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4th World Wide Sketchcrawl: What a blast!

"The Scourge of the Sketchcrawlers!" A scuffling horde of sunscreen flouting, graphite wielding, drawing junkies/zombies out to make plein air impressions of a neighborhood near you!

The biggest Sketchcrawl event yet. Enrico had outdone himself with this Sketchcrawl. More people showed up and, from what I can gather from checking in with people, they all did more drawings that in past Sketchcrawls. We've been pretty lucky with weather in all the San Francisco crawls. The sun came out to give us spectacular drawing sceneries, given how finicky the sun could be in the city we're pretty blessed. By the time I got there Dolores Cafe seemed to have been invaded by a monastic drawing order, taken up their outdoor and indoor seating, sketchbook and pencils already off to the races.

I took a group to the nearby park and we settled into warming up (literally, for most. By the end of the day a good number of us were a deep red from sun burn). Next we hoofed it the corner of Church and Market to regroup. Took the Muni to have lunch, walked to the Haight and then into the park for more drawing. Sketchcrawlers make the best subjects because they hold really still for a long time. After that, even deeper in the park we encountered a drum community drumming up a storm among a Saturday audience of picnickers and sun worshippers. Then it was off to the Japanese Tea house -- free after 5 p.m.--to draw our final, serene garden.

All that done we headed to the canvas Cafe where Terra had tables ready for the Sketchcrawl contigent to sit, eat, drink and pass around the sketchbooks for everyone to see the drawings of the day. The best part of the day. Amazing work from everyone. Thank you to all who came and braved the hike and goofy directions. We always mean to plan these better but that's part of the fun. This was the best Sketchcrawl yet and it was so good to hear that everyone had a great time drawing and hiking, saying that they're looking forward to the next one. So are we. Feeling this great after each one is done makes us wonder why we don't stage it more often. We'll be working on that.

Thanks again and don't miss out on the drawings. Check out the links below. Congratulations to all who attended and made this such an enjoyable Saturday to be alive.

Sketchcrawl Forum
San Francisco Sketchcrawl Forum thread


Note: I wrote this post before the catastrophic events brought on by hurricane Katrina. Our thoughts and prayers to all affected. Our little community never misses the opportunity to help in these times. Watch for relief events to be posted here soon.

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Sunday, August 28, 2005

Canvas book launch for Dan Lee a wild success!

Emphatic enough for ya? I may be overstating it but I haven't done many gallery openings where I'm involved, so maybe not. Nevertheless, it was a great tribute to Dan. The Canvas was packed! The center gallery had Dan's art up, flanked by his friends' artwork all around the walls of the cafe. People arrived and the buzz was amazing. Terra, the gallery director had speculated that since we all worked with Dan that the rest of the gallery was going to be digital as well. But she was pleasantly surprised that every one of us exhibited personal, practical media artwork. Actual pencil, watercolor, gouache, charcoal...what have you. Friends, colleagues, familiar faces and new faces all mingled around the work and celebrated the one gallery event that Dan didn't have a chance to have while he was with us.

Sunny, Dan's sister spoke to the audience to welcome everyone and thank his friends who made all this possible. I first met Sunny when she spoke at Pixar at Dan's memorial and I was very impressed by her presence and voice, confident, clear and welcoming--obviously used to speaking publicly or leading. This evening she tells the audience the reason the gallery was held at Canvas was because Dan would drive all the way from the East Bay to sit there and draw, "So, if some of you recognize yourself in the book or the framed work, you know why." Even when Dan was pretty sick, and now sporting a disabled sign to hang in his car, he still drove in; enjoying the signal privilege of being able to park behind the cafe and walk in from the back door. In closing she mentioned Joe Ranft's tragic accident knowing that most of the audience have that loss in common with us that night.

My thanks to all who made this possible. Beaming pride to be part of this with you all.

And lastly, to all of you who bought artwork, thanks so much for contributing to Dan's evening and, if I can speak for all of us exhibiting, we're really so very flattered and honored that you shelled out hard-earned cash for the work. I personally have the usual crisis of spirit and direction (maybe out of habit) but this gesture, well, I can live off of this when I get in my gray moods. Our deepest appreciation, folks.

I wish I had taken more pictures, so many people were there. These were the ones that I managed to not botch--low light, medium performance digital camera and walking around completely oblivious to photo ops. Thanks to all who visited, seriously.

The gallery will be up for a month for those of you who wish to see what the hubbub is all about. Go and drop by, say hi to Terra and tell her we sent you. Next post will have Canvas in it as well. We just finished the 4th World Wide Sketchcrawl yesterday, finishing right there at Canvas. I have a report and pictures.

Be well.


Better pictures and a report of the evening at Enrico's spankin' revampted blog here.

Dan Lee "In Your Face" blog for info on how to get his book here.

Friday, August 26, 2005


Google Ads. Tirade is not a commercial venture in that it isn't intended to be a scheme to generate revenue. It does require me to hold on to space large enough to keep the traffic going. Given that, I've attached ads on the right side bar generated by Google's Adsense. What sense? Whatever it does it does on it's own...sense; as in not selected by me.

If you find the items in those boxes intriguing and you click on them, then--as the vagaries of all things on the net are subject to--the best of luck to you. But know that when you do you will be generating hits in a counter that will go on a till that counts them up and sends me, someday, some bucks to use for the upkeep of this here blog. Likely, it won't be much (I dont' know, just trying it for the first time), but it can help.

All this is an attempt to be on the up and up. I've a wary radar about commerce about most things and judicious transparency has been something I wish most business endeavors have. So, I put my proverbial money where my internet mouth is.

Thank you, and do let me know if this colors the experience of visiting this blog. If that changes everything then I will change everything.

The Management
("Management." I've always wanted to sign off like that. Heh.)

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Honoring Joe

Nina in flower print dress. Pencil and watercolor on watercolor paper. Part of the gallery event at Canvas tonight.

Thank you for all the loving words and thoughts on Joe posted on this blog. It's there for his family and friends to visit and I feel privileged to have been of some service in honoring his memory. I didn't get to know him as well as some of my colleagues here at work but still blessed to have spent some time with him and learned a lot even in that short time. The blog post on Joe will move down off the page as new posts are made but please don't let that stop you from accessing that post from the archive links found on the right sidebar.

I've had people ask to know more about Joe, hear more stories about his wit, humor, stories about that giant heart of his, his love for bad movies (I guess he believed good movies you can admire but bad movies can really teach you something), his dark funny side--all that is beyond my latitude or comfort level to provide. Perhaps one day a book will be compiled or a tribute created in one of our movies. Given Joe's enormous contribution to animated films we've loved over the years you can be assured that something will come around to honor his memory for all of us to keep and be constantly inspired by.

This weekend's Sketchcrawl organized by Enrico will be in honor of Dan Lee and Joe Ranft. See post below for details. We'll hike, chat, draw and inspire each other to mark that day with pencil and paper and take on the days that follow knowing we can choose to do what we love and be comfortable with the notion that it will matter.

Be well.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Dan Lee Book launch and this weekend's Sketchcrawl

Just to show the book again with some pages. Powerhouse assist by Tony Fucile, who happened on me at the stairwell (good light there) taking snaps of it with one hand holding the book, camera in the other. That's Tony Fucile, right there! Anyway, I didn't dare show the full Fucile. Could be too much. Saving that for a future post

"In Your Face" book launch this Thursday. Just a reminder for those of you who're local or are planning on it. The lovely Carmen Ngai had patiently waited this past Sunday for all the framed artwork from the artists doing the show, taking great care to bubble wrap each precious one. I couldn't see any of it (other than mine), so I'm wanting to find out if there's a few that I'd like to buy right off as well. Here are the particulars again.

"In Your Face" Book Launch Party
Canvas Gallery Cafe.
August 25, 2005 (Thurs)
7:00pm to 12:00am

Dan Lee Book Launch blog
The Canvas Gallery Events page
Cartoon Brew

Pen and pencil with watercolor, finished on Photoshop. Drawing done a couple of weeks ago at Rooz Cafe on Piedmont Avenue. Hey, free wireless, can't beat that. The folks running the coop are great to talk to, and art on the ceiling!

And,again, a reminder that the 4th World Wide Sketchcrawl in honor of Dan Lee and Joe Ranft will be this Saturday. What are we doing? Where do we meet? Let's hear what Enrico tells us.

We are meeting at 10:30 am at Dolores Park Cafe, Dolores and 18th. It should be nice. The mission has a nice gritty feel to it that I look forward to drawing. Here's the rough itinerary: we'll be around the mission for a few hours, have lunch there and then head toward Church and Market where we can take the N-Juda to Cole Valley, there we can get off and wonder around Cole Valley, the Haight and then end up into Golden Gate Park ... chill, draw people ... get to the Japanese Garden and maybe even that little lake above it with the chinese temples ...
then Canvas Gallery Cafe around 6pm....

that's it ... should be fun!

And if any of you are coming and would like to buy Dan's book "in your face" a collection of his cafe sketches, I can bring some for you (it's $10) ...
here's the description at Amazon.

Map to corner cafe where we start Dolores Park Cafe, Dolores and 18th Street

Sketchcrawl Forum
Enrico's new blog

Monday, August 22, 2005

Movie storytellers to make you feel

I try to post an image for every post. Photoshop on Wacom Cintiq.

Joe's quest to be better at storyboarding and storytelling is a standard to aspire to and we all have pieces of what he's been for us to share and learn from. Colleagues in animation are all movie addicts, talking in movie phrases and attendant sound effects (scaring the uninitiated within earshot), spontaneous discussions about movies we love or hate on a daily basis. So, to keep in shape and keep on with Joe's passion to understand stories better (he even had a soft spot for appreciating the strangest of "trainwrecks", as John Lasseter recounts) here's two of my recent faves, both films are about dealing with loss. (NY Times requires registration). A recent documentary was on when I was painting this weekend and I heard a quote but didn't see who it was. I believe this to be true:

"People come to movies to feel, not to understand."

NY Times review of "2046" by Kar Wai Wong. Just saw the movie last night. Really impressed by it. It may not appeal to the general public needing all questions answered but I so enjoyed the way it didn't cleave to the expected rythms and regularities of a standard structure but delivered a journey worth the time taking anyway. Performances by the cast were powerful (Ziyi Zhang blazed a performance for the Oscars, I think) and the camera work and spare staging carries the style of the earlier "In the mood for Love." Excerpt from Manohla Dargis review:

Routinely criticized for his weak narratives, Mr. Wong is one of the few filmmakers working in commercial cinema who refuse to be enslaved by traditional storytelling. He isn't the first and certainly not the only one to pry cinema from the grip of classical narrative, to take a pickax to the usual three-act architecture (or at least shake the foundation), while also dispatching with the art-deadening requirements (redemption, closure, ad nauseam) that have turned much of Big Hollywood into a creative dead zone. Like some avant-garde filmmakers and like his contemporary, Hou Hsiao-hsien of Taiwan, among precious few others these days, Mr. Wong makes movies, still a young art, that create meaning through visual images, not just words.

(bolds are mine--R)

And if you're really feeling daring, try out Ji-woon Kim's "Tale of Two Sisters" (Janghwa, Hongryeon). Pete Sohn lent me his DVD with cautions that it's not a good movie. But I was blown away by the unstructured story telling. Left a lot of questions unanswered. Mystifying parts that didn't fit. But I had a blast anyway. My cup of tea. NY Times review by Dana Stevens excerpted below"

In a subversion of the usual horror-movie rhythm, the central secret is revealed about halfway through. The film's last 40 minutes trace the evolving rivalry between the fierce Su-Mi and her archetypically monstrous stepmother, slowly leading us to the heart of what is, in the end, less a gruesome fairy tale than a somber reflection on memory, adolescence and mourning.

Marvelled at the direction (restraint, great choices) and the powerful performances of the lead women. Hat's off to all involved. Sad to see the DVD cover capitalize on gore imagery which implies slasher sensibilities to this movie that isn't in quantities to warrant the diservice.


Friday, August 19, 2005

Joe Ranft: Donations and Cards

In lieu of flowers, the Ranft family respectfully requests that donations be made to:

The Joseph Henry Ranft Memorial Fund
c/o Pixar Animation Studios
1200 Park Ave.
Emeryville, CA 94608

Anyone wanting to send a note or card to the family is also welcome to send it to:

The Family of Joe Ranft
c/o Pixar Animation Studios
1200 Park Ave.
Emeryville, CA 94608

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Joe Ranft 1960-2005

Last drawing I did of Joe in our Story Leads meeting, July 2005

Joe Ranft died from a car accident last night. He was the very first Head of Story in feature animation and I've had many talks with him about how that came about--but the likely reason that this position continues to be necessary is because he defined the role from the very beginning and is still the very best example of how to do it. To the benefit of all subsequent feature endeavors he had been part of and all future HOS's that have had to do the job anywhere. Mighty big shoes.

When I entered the building I saw Mari, Bill and Gaylyn at the stairwell, all visibly dealing with heavy emotions. It was only when Kevin Reher walked me into my office and told me I figure why. I got the wind knocked out of me. It is a massive surge of disbelief, I cannot process it still. I searched out the story people I've served with, Jason Katz, Jim Capobianco, Matt Luhn...People cannot say much but just gave each other embraces to quell the sadness. Eventually we all met at the atrium. It is the saddest day at Pixar. The population at work had never been this silent, heavy stillness except for the sounds of grief. Ed Catmull, visibly shaken walked out to deliver the sad news. John Lasseter stood beside him but could not speak.

Joe is the very best story man ever and the best human being I've known in animation. He is mentor, friend and inspiration to all of us who do this job. The last meeting I had with Joe was a Story Lead meeting where we share the collective known knowlege of those of us who've done Head of story jobs. Great stories of how to and why. And we earmark things we want to improve. As always with Joe it was about accentuating the positive and finding what works with people. I will miss him.

Our heartfelt prayers to his family.


Pixar intranet employee listing for Joe Ranft lets you know that he was Born on March 13, 1960 and was hired at Pixar on October 5, 1992. Under this he writes in the generic getting-to-know-you questions:

What do you do at Pixar?
I draw storyboards

What did you do before you came to Pixar?

I drew lots of storyboards

What do you do when you're out having fun?
I try not to draw any storyboards, but sometimes I can't help myself.

What is your favorite quote?
"Developing a picture from back to front is a work habbit which, once aquired, becomes one of the artist's most valuable tools.
-Don Graham


Cartoon Brew
Hollywood Reporter
Animation Nation

Wikipedia: Joe Ranft



Joe's brother Jerome Ranft called me early this morning, asking me to tell as many people as I could, in the LA area, about Joe's sad, untimely and tragic passing. My day has been spent breaking this horrible news to people who had not heard. I can honestly say this has been the saddest day in my 22 year career in animation. Joe and I worked together many, many times and I will never forget him. He was a true credit to his profession and there was never anyone better at it. My thoughts and prayers are with all his friends and family.

I join you in your sadness. This is a great, great loss.

Kelly Asbury


(David Silverman writes)

Brother Ronnie -

We're all in a state of shock down here in LA. Your thoughtful words are a great comfort. Joe was such an extraordinary artist, teacher, and friend -- one of the nicest people ever to stroll the planet. He has entertained millions who have no idea how much Joe touched them. He has influenced legions of artists, and will influence legions more.

Getting to work closely with Joe was an honor and an education. And a hell of a lot of fun.

A sad sad day for us all.

--Old Davy


(Ruth Ann - Joe's Sister said...)

A friend of mine forwarded this link to me yesterday. I can't tell you how much your kind words about Joe mean to all of us. My parents arrived here last night. They are devastated. My mother stayed up and read all of your comments. It was a great comfort.

Joe was not only my big brother, he was one of my best friends. I will miss him.


Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Anime industry report. So that's how it works.

The Anime News Network has posted some information on a report released by JETRO (The Japan External Trade Organization) on the current state of the Anime Industry in Japan.

Earlier this year, the Japan Digital Contents & an independent government agency gathered 500 million yen each to start an investment financing fund for content production in animation.

A typical 30-minute TV episode costs 10 million yen to produce, however some cost as little as 5 million yen to produce.

Most TV series do not recoup their production costs through TV broadcasting and rely on other revenue sources (DVDs, licensing, toys, etc…) to make up the shortfall and profit.

Employees in many smaller animation studios are not paid monthly salaries. Many also don’t have guaranteed stable incomes.

--Anime Market Research Report

Am I converting that amount right? 10,000,000 yen = $91,432.7 USD. What are the current costs for an American production, 22-minute show outsourced to Asia? Upwards of 500,000 USD? Pricing the same for foreign contracts? If prices are comparable, who's getting the rest of that budget? Executive suite golden toilet seats don't pay for themselves, I guess.


Got above info through Justin Leach's site. Thanks, Enrico

Have you ever wanted to live in Japan? Have you even felt drawn to Japanese culture for a long time for no apparent reason? Do you geek out when you watch a Miyazaki film?(check on all counts. --R)

CGJIG (Computer Graphics Japan Interest Group) is an interest group for people who are interested in Japanese culture who also happen to be involved in the computer graphics industry. It is a place for people to share their experiences, anecdotes, and topics regarding Japan.
Justin Leach used to live in Japan and worked at Production IG, (you know the guys who made Ghost in the Shell 2 Innocence, Kill Bill vol 1 animation, Dead Leaves, Patlabor Movies...)

Anime News Network
Jetro report PDF

Monday, August 15, 2005

Sketchcrawl No.4 in honor of Dan Lee's book launch

Pencil and watercolor on Fabriano journal page. Entry of July 2, 2005, Seacliff beach.

August 27, 2005. We figured that the pressure's off by that weekend and we can all go out to sketch around the park or some place around the city. Then we can all end up at Canvass to cap the day. Check out what we did the last time, links below.

Enrico's Journal
Sketchcrawl Forum

Nina in Ball skirt

Pencil and Watercolor on watercolor paper. I'd like to do a full color Nina book someday. No pixels were used to make the actual artwork.

Ball skirt. That's what Tess calls it, I think. Just placed this in a frame; I love how that moment transforms a piece. You all know what I'm talking about. I tilted it off square from the matt and it seems to make a huge difference. You all be the judge at the the Canvas show. See post below for details.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Dan Lee Tribute: "In Your Face" book launch

At the ceremony honoring Dan Lee at Pixar we all got to see a hardbound book that was put together for Dan's family. It was a great collection of non-production work that Dan had been doing, leisure time drawings, cafe drawings. Those images seemed like it would make good book to print in larger print run so that others may have something of Dan to keep. Mark Holmes, Noelle Page, and Carmen Ngai didn't just stop at wondering but did just that.

Zippity Publishing was formed by a small group of friends and family members after Dan's passing. "In Your Face" is a collection of personal artwork by Dan. He used to visit Canvas Gallery Cafe to people watch and created these wonderful stylized sketches of the coffee drinkers around him.

For weeks now a bunch of us at Pixar have been preparing work to show alongside Dan's work to celebrate his work (he hated being the center of attention). I like to think that if Dan had not left us so soon he would have been with us this year with this very book, exhibiting at San Diego. This is our special convention around him.

Featured Artists: Dan Lee, Albert Lozano, Robert Kondo, Ronnie Del Carmen, Ernesto Nemesio, Enrico Casarosa, Paul Topolos, Louis Gonzalez, Liz Holmes, Daniel Arriaga, and Jay Shuster.

Pencil and watercolor on watercolor paper. Actual media, man!

The book is for sale and will be available at Amazon soon (all proceeds will go to charity). If you are in the neighborhood please come by. All us Pixar blokes exhibiting will be selling all artwork exhibited. Can you believe it? This time everything I'm bringing is for sale (I've been ribbed for not selling enough in the last two galleries, so...). World Class DJ Albert Lozano (seriously, this guy hung out with Babu, man! And mentor to my son, Geo, who also spins) will be there to provide music. Come by, odds are these Pixar dudes are in a sketching mood and will doodle on your book.

"In Your Face" Book Launch Party
Canvas Gallery Cafe.
August 25, 2005 (Thurs)
7:00pm to 12:00am

Dan Lee Book Launch blog
The Canvas Gallery Events page
Cartoon Brew

Tile image

Photoshop on Wacom Cintiq--the new one. It's like butter.

A drawing post to appease the gods of illustrated blogs. There are events coming up in a few weeks. Preparing images for it. After a writing exercise (below) I can somehow allow myself to draw things again.

Journal entry: Mayflies & musician

I have fiscal concerns. That’s me grumbling about having to do practical accounting maintenance that will undoubtedly bite me in the heinie if ignored too long. I also have other choices to mull over, diverged roads and such. Carousels of opportunities always come around. And you can say no.

Like, no, I will not scream at that a**hole who cut me off on the Five, chasing him at 110 mph just so I can glower at him and maybe we won’t be a mangled mess of steel, plastic and bone on the asphalt seconds later. It’s a choice, see. I can’t learn that often enough.

Walking down Piedmont Avenue to withdraw some cash for the afternoon. It’s Sunday and I have artwork to make and numbers to crunch and some career divining to do, though you wouldn't know it by the aimless way I'm going about even starting any of those tasks. I hear him before I see him but it doesn’t register as music being played from an instrument. Classical guitar, this young man was playing, amplified just enough by a small Crate, mic covered with a muffling cloth on a stand pointed at the sound hole. Just enough to carry the sound further than the sunny, chilly breeze can carry, what with the traffic and light shuffle of crowds along this unlikely corner to play classical guitar.

Shortly after mating, females lay eggs on the river's surface. The eggs drift to the bottom and after 45 days hatch into larvae, which dig tunnels forming dense colonies up to 400 per square foot. After three years larvae break for the surface where females molt once and males shed twice: first into a brief subadult stage then again minutes later into adulthood. After both sexes have fully matured, mayflies have roughly three hours before they die.

The guitar was of good quality. Walnut, smokey orange body and the whiskey brown neck adorned with brass frets. The young man's fingers flatten at the tips, capped by short nails, gecko like; he had technique but the live performance or the chill air makes the fingers stick to the strings just slightly. Enjoyable music. "Do you know that piece?" he asks after he finishes. I knew it but couldn't come up with the answer. "Sakura." He goes on to say that it was copped from a guitar and flute version he heard. I ask if he is a student or something, "Yeah. I will be. I gave up on the workforce and decided to be a full time student." I fished out two dollars to stuff into the hat in front of him.

Most mayfly species have no mouthparts and cannot feed,

"I figure that I should do this now rather than wonder 'What if' later down the line," he says, voicing the stakes. "Heck, I should've done this when I was eighteen, but who knows..." He didn't look much older than that.

"Thank you" I say, "Good job." I walk to get to the ATM and grab cash. The security of that receipt with those numbers also comes with a numbness to it. I will test this someday. I walk back to the van and see the young guitar player playing to no one, I didn't want to walk in front of him again. His stare ahead in the context of that sidewalk and the cold breeze offers nothing beyond the everydayness of the present gamble. I'm using up time. I will waste more by getting coffee and writing at my favorite wifi coffeeshop. I drive to work and use up another two hours on this quiet Sunday. Still haven't done what's on the list of things to do. I'm getting hungry. It's really quiet at work on weekends and tomorrow the noise of workday hustle returns. Today I can pretend that the clock will not move forward. That is, until dinner forces me to give up on my list. I can do this at home. Yeah.